It's a pretty incredible feeling to be a mom. Last year on Mother's Day we were moving into our new apartment and I was about 7 months pregnant. I already felt like a mom in some ways, but wondered how different I would feel this year; after having some real "mom experience" under my belt. I can honestly say that nothing could have prepared me for what it feels like to be a mother. It is so joyful, rewarding, overwhelming, scary, intense, and beautiful. It has been such a gift to love and care for my sweet girl. I'm thankful each day for her health, her joyful spirit, her smile. I'm thankful for all that she has asked of me and brought out in me. She has challenged me to be a different & better person in ways I didn't think I was quite capable of. No matter how tired or frustrated I am, her sweet face makes me fall deeper in love with her. I can only hope that as the years wear on, my love and gratitude for all that she is will always grow. I hope that I am able to change and learn and adapt to her changing world; that I'll always be able to provide comfort, guidance, and love in just the way she needs most.
It seems fitting now that Eleanor is going through a "Mommy" phase. She grips me so tightly around the neck when I hold her & she never wants me to put her down. How lucky I am to have someone who loves me so much and whom I'd give anything for.
Thanks for giving me the chance to enter the ranks of motherhood, Eleanor. I'm the luckiest lady to have you with me to take this path together.
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